mom is going to be ok

so i talked to my dad while still laying in bed. i stayed up waaaay to late last night and as a result slept through the entire day. dads phonecall woke me up about a quarter to 6pm and he told me that mom was out of the operation and in the recovery room. she was having back surgery to fix some problems in her lower back that had been giving her chronic back pain for years, i am so happy for her if this worked. they basically fused some spinal vertabrae together in her lower back and added to hip braces on either side to give her more support. she will be out of commission for about 3 months and will begin therapy. i'm just glad she pulled through ok. my dad said that at one point they had to stand her up in the middle of the operation to see if she could support the hip braces. fucking crazy.

which leads me to my own back issues. i have had chronic back issues too, i guess that is a hereditary trait . in my case i have always centered all of my stress into my back and it has affected my posture over time. my grandpa had back problems too and always used to talk about looking like a question mark. ? . He used to say that a lot when i was a little boy and it stuck with me.